A Writers Tale

I'm alive. I've spent a large portion of my life gradually numbing myself to my emotions... Not realising that creation is made possible when we are emotional. I am so grateful for some of the most heart wrenching moments in my life. When I met you, I did not have much of a clue, not a single clue of what I wanted, of who I was and of what being alive in this world means. I was afraid and the worst thing about it... I didn't even realise that I was so scared. After sitting with you, only briefly I was empowered by you immediately. You made me feel on top of the world, you filled my entire being up and it was no big deal for you. Maybe it is that I rushed into bed with you super quick or maybe it was that I didn't give us enough of a chance to blossom... We didn't come to be. You are the love I almost had, the love whose taste ceases to leave my tastebuds alone. You were the love that showed me that absolutely anything is possible... And I was the love that.... Well

Coming to terms with life decisions, With which path is right and which is wrong? Who am I? Why do I do the things I do? How can I create the life I want, when I am tied to the life I have lived? Change my name? Move from here to there? Live a life far from ordinary?  Live for the ordinary? Which is the right path?  Which is the correct route? Running away surely is not an option? If I run, how long will it be until it all catches up... Okay that's settled, I'm choosing to face it, I am choosing to find my way back, to the source of it all I am choosing to utilise my emotions and devotions! I am CHOOSING life! Write, write, write.... Non-sensical jargon is my plight... lalalalala The words begin to take a form of their own! Grow, Grow, Grow! Spring is here, doncha be knowing!? Whey!!! 

Let me tell you a tale of roots, roots that run deep and spread through the universal soil, roots that spread wide and far, far away from the conditioning of the mind, beyond the mental, to the place where many are blind, to a place where many are afraid to go... spread to the darkness and established deeply throughout and within.... now let me tell you a tale of growth, of an original seeking for light and nutrition, for a yearning desire for life to flourish for leaves to spread open, for buds to open as the spring comes to be, Spread towards the light, blooming so gracefully, filling the skies of the mind, reflecting the rooting within... an outwards stretching of capabilities and a deep trusting in the roots beneath.. You see, in the roots we find our wisdom and in our growth we find our knowledge, and all together we become.... Have you ever noticed, that in nature... all plants, trees, flowers, fruits and veg, must endure both the darkness and the light in so