Ylana Maya - A peaceful Revolution
Ayesha sat up that evening in a state of complete relaxation. She couldn't get passed how peaceful she felt considering her life was none the different.
She wished not to sleep because then she'd be wasting this very peace which currently consumed her body. She daren't not make any sudden unexpected changes. Her plan was simply to lie there with her favourite music on and sit in this inner peace she had created for herself, with the assistance of prescription drugs of course.
Ayesha had quite frequently experienced this very real fear of death come on to her at times... well it wasn't really a fear, just more she had convinced herself of it's realness in her own mind. She felt like it was going to happen and everyone will have been warned but nobody had taken her seriously and that's just how it was in her head. But she was not at all fearful of it, she just wanted people she cared about to be ready in case it did happen. I know... that's pretty grim.
Maybe she just deep down wanted to kill herself but wouldn't ever do that as it would simply hurt her enitre family too much if she did that. Maybe if she passed naturally she wouldn't have to feel any guilt attached to the situation.
Maybe Ayesha needed to stop swimming in the depths of her consciousness for a little while, maybe find some salvage in the more shallow parts of her psychy.
This was likely why she was feeling so peaceful on the codeine she had been prescribed to cope with the pain of her broken arms.
She wished not to sleep because then she'd be wasting this very peace which currently consumed her body. She daren't not make any sudden unexpected changes. Her plan was simply to lie there with her favourite music on and sit in this inner peace she had created for herself, with the assistance of prescription drugs of course.
Ayesha had quite frequently experienced this very real fear of death come on to her at times... well it wasn't really a fear, just more she had convinced herself of it's realness in her own mind. She felt like it was going to happen and everyone will have been warned but nobody had taken her seriously and that's just how it was in her head. But she was not at all fearful of it, she just wanted people she cared about to be ready in case it did happen. I know... that's pretty grim.
Maybe she just deep down wanted to kill herself but wouldn't ever do that as it would simply hurt her enitre family too much if she did that. Maybe if she passed naturally she wouldn't have to feel any guilt attached to the situation.
Maybe Ayesha needed to stop swimming in the depths of her consciousness for a little while, maybe find some salvage in the more shallow parts of her psychy.
This was likely why she was feeling so peaceful on the codeine she had been prescribed to cope with the pain of her broken arms.
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